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“The truth isn't often told, it is lived. Cory's journey as told through his unique and daring vision is as close to that truth as one can get. He lived it. I feel every stone under foot, every snow crystal, every piercing breath of cold air, struggling to breathe, as if I were right there with him. This book is as important as anything I've read in understanding the mind, the heart, and one's deepest fears as he invites us on the journey of overcoming adversity through human spirit and triumph.”

— Reinaldo Marcus Green, American director and film producer of One Love and King Richard.

EXCERPT

“I have a sense that the further I’m willing to go and the more I’m willing to risk, the less likely I am to sleep in the alleys and scream at trees. The decision to pursue my own edges by pushing the limits of my safety is not a conscious one and I don’t know when I make it. It will not just be climbing. It will be traversing ice caps and rivers in Africa and forgotten seas and I’ll lose sight of land and the world altogether. It will nearly kill me many times. This decision will precipitate heartbreak and selfishness and elation and success and shocking moments of joy and campfires and long nights of looking at nothing. The highs will be dizzying and the lows will be suicidal at times. I’ll collect many brothers and sisters and will hurt many friends when I withdraw. They’ll feel used. Some will forgive me, and others won’t, and many will lose faith in my friendship because I’m as unreliable as my moods. I’ll learn that there is little room for others when we’re consumed by ourselves. 

Many friends will die and I’ll wish that I’d been better to them. At times it will seem senseless. But I’ll ignore the warning of mortality. I’ll be criticized by many and adored by others. I won’t be the best and some people will hate me and think my success is undeserved. A piece of me will agree while another laps up the adoration of everyone who offers it. I’ll drink and fuck in celebration. I’ll do the same to escape the isolation of the choice I’m about to make. 

It’s irrational but I can see no other solution even though I can’t see now what I’m doing at all. I’m not only trying to unify myself but also to put as much distance between me and an inevitable madness clipping at my heels. I’m always scared but the fear also drives me, feeding the pieces of my brain that thrive in chaos. I won’t understand any of it until I break on a mountain nineteen years from now. The decision is an outright and unbridled expression of my unquiet mind. I’m choosing a life of polarity. In order to escape madness, I will live madly. I will risk my life in order to save it.”

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